I want to share my film experience in this blog. I’ll write here about my studies, challenges, projects and other staff which bothers 34 yo girl who decided to make her dream come true whatever it costs. And thats how the story begins On NY eve of winter of 2015 days I was working in my friend’s cozy office in the downtown. It’ve been a while when I shared the room with other people. It was my first week there and I felt like loosing my mind in the cacophony of ringing phones, keyboard taps and exaggerated cordial dialogues of my colleagues. Luxury for managers and necessity for freelancers like me, solitude is the first thing you loose entering the corporate world. Frankly, I wasn’t excited about idea of going back to office stuff, but my friend was insistive and two bottles of gin we shared the night she recruited me made me thinking the idea wasn’t that bad. I also had some side projects that time. My clients used to bother me all at once. Words like strategies, cases, smm and all that pr stuff made me sick. My evenings belonged to the acting studio where I combined both curator’s and student’s position. I’ve launched it earlier that year. It took me a few weeks and 30 dollars to start. And the profit of it was calculated in the quantity of pleasure I had at acting classes. It was ordinary NY’s eve day. Belated tasks, fucked up deadlines, false wishes and overall expectation of the miracle. I was happy producing photoshoots before. And I was good at it. How come that my new colleagues even didn’t have an idea I have a portfolio?.. People summed up their year’s achievements and shared expectations for the next. As for me, all I was dreaming about was that these serious people didn’t bother me anymore. My dream came true though. I was fired from two projects and I’ve never felt any better about that. But before my relief I spent a night crying and woke up with decision to never betray my dreams anymore. It was a crazy year. I left pr (It was great experience though). I entered the film school and was lucky enough to join the 3rd year at once. I had to leave the studio because of lack of time. I’ve lost connection with most of my former circle and made new friends, some came back from the past. Film school became my huge disappointment. I was about to leave it when suddenly I found sense why I should continue. This year changed my life dramatically and much more changes are about to happen. Stay tuned and see you soon!